One of the lay missioners in Chile writes in Bible and Life 
 about some of the difficulties of the life. He returned recently from a
 meeting, and  as soon as he arrived home, he lit the stove; his hands 
and feet were so cold it was more than he could bear, he writes. His 
wife gave him a massage but with  no improvement. He looked for a needle to prick his finger, and not finding one only made matters worse. 
He
 was preparing for a retreat with his fellow missioners and was to pick 
them up the next morning.  Would he be able to go? he wondered. The  
thought  bothered him, as he sat on the sofa and pondered the options.  
He
 was a member of the navy before he became a missioner and knows what it
 means to be busy.  Whatever he was given to do he would do it to the 
best of his ability. But suddenly the thought came to him: Was he living
 the way he was thinking, or thinking in the way he  was living? He was,
 he admitted, unskilled in knowing how to rest, and his personality 
didn't help. He often sought the leisure to rest but when it came he 
didn't know what to do, and then felt guilty for wasting time. He knew 
this was his psychological problem.
He
 had often heard that a healthy missioner's life was composed of four 
elements: prayer, study, action and leisure. All four, he knew, were 
equally important, but for him he realized that taking advantage of 
leisure time required some training. He wasn't adept with small talk; 
games and play were not enjoyable; reading was enjoyable but after 
reading his mind couldn't rest, and travel required money. What could he
 do that would rest the head, heart and body? He sat on the sofa trying 
to rid himself of all thoughts--it was difficult. He recalled that this 
was the first time in his life that he ever attempted an hour of doing 
absolutely nothing.
That night he tried to sleep on the sofa but succeeded in turning and tossing on the sofa all night. Though in the morning, he felt that he would be able to go to the retreat. He realized that to take advantage of leisure required an act of the will. He wondered whether he would continue as a missioner in the future or return to a life back in Korea for a short period of honey-like leisure. It was a matter he decided to discuss with the Lord during the retreat.
That night he tried to sleep on the sofa but succeeded in turning and tossing on the sofa all night. Though in the morning, he felt that he would be able to go to the retreat. He realized that to take advantage of leisure required an act of the will. He wondered whether he would continue as a missioner in the future or return to a life back in Korea for a short period of honey-like leisure. It was a matter he decided to discuss with the Lord during the retreat.
 
 
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