June 11, 2009 4:31 am
According to the Korean way of calculating
I was 32 when I came here
I’m 81, now, What’s the same?
And what’s changed?
Nothing’s the same
And nothing’s changed.
The really ‘me’ inside,
that Essence –
the consciousness inside
that mud from Eden
that we now know as star dust.
A star dies, explodes, its dust
gives shape and form to us.
Out of space and silence
Comes --- us…. The shapes we have
at age two, thirty-two, eighty-one.
But those shapes and
concretions added to us since
our first appearance here,
whether healthy body, active mind,
bad decisions, good works,
unhappy failures, joyous accomplishments –
none of these things are us.
The “I” that is “me” –
The conscious awareness –
is separate from all these things –
it can’t be labeled
anymore than what we label “God”
can be labeled
nor can it pass away
any more than “where-it-comes-from”
can pass away.
Philosophers, theologians, Hindu holy men,
sibyls, oracles, holy women,
thinkers of all shapes and sizes
And often very varying opinions, all are
consciousnesses! (There’s a word
to tell you how difficult it is
to try to place a name on it - )
The Buddhists say God has
nine billion names;
Saint John said it better: ‘God is love,’
Which is as easily graspable as how many
billion stars are in the sky.
Love: you and I, he and she, we and they
all related, interconnected
(hooray for DNA) not only
to each other, but to apes and peacocks,
taro roots and lily pads,
dirt, mud, ice, water, steam –
every-thing that is part of us,
from exploding stars
big bang, before, after, Space, Silence,
Two, thirty-two, eighty-one
‘Past’ and ‘future’ are mere mental constructions.
is now – this moment now – forever
all inter-connected, God is love.
Thoughts early on a June morning
49th anniversary of ordination.
James Sinnott, MM
To learn more about Father Sinnott and his years in Korea click here.